I’m learning… I’ve been playing quite a bit of online poker as I’ve not had time to go play live. I’m realizing some things about my game that I am now working to fix. I won’t go into specifics but I”m feeling good about working on them and “pluggin up my bucket”.
It feels good to grow and get better.
So look, this week has just been a mess. I don’t think I’ve played a single tournament other than the ladies tourney at Caesars which was just plain sad for me. lol
I decided to take my brain away from it and really focus on the reality of the rest of my life. (Let’s not forget the importance of the NBA playoffs by the way… no I’m not joking) My in-laws for a lack of better term, are in town right now. I’m really blessed to enjoy his family as I do. They are really wonderful people but alas, they ARE in-laws. At this point in my life, I honestly didn’t think I’d ever deal with a second set of them but here I am, doing it. They’re wonderful people as I’ve said. They are also not my flesh and blood which makes things especially challenging when trying to maintain my home and family unit. I won’t go into it right now, I’ll save that for a much much later time and a bottle of wine. lol
Part of my walk and journey, is being healthy in all aspects of my life…. So, I cut my hair. Yep, my waist length hair is now a very sexy sassy bob and I must say, it’s down right sexy! I just love it. Not only do I love it, I went out and bought a partial new wardrobe to compliment it! HA!!! I say partial as I’ve lost a considerable amount of weight recently and don’t feel the need to invest heavily in a whole new one until I’ve reached my goals.
How does all of this stuff relate to my poker game?? It’s all mental. My game has suffered recently. I needed a spark up my ass and this was just what I needed to get myself in gear and refocus on my goals. We as women are such emotional creatures. As much as I’d like to think of myself as not being one, I am. It’s really just the bottom line.
I’ll be back in the real swing of things for the next few weeks and then I’ll be dedicating my time and efforts towards my SO. Getting him into the right frame of mind for the “poker season” is more important than most everything else. This is his career of 5 years, not mine. I love the game and want to always improve but he’s the one doing this for a living……
I plan on playing the Wynn 2pm tourney this week to check it out. I’ll also play a nooner at the Venetian and possibly a TI tourney.
I’ll keep you posted and put up a new pic of myself with my new “do” once I get some downloaded this weekend.
xoxo
Blink
Well for starters, my family knows when I’m sitting down to the computer and they hear the keys a clackin, not to bother me. It usually means I’m thinking and that can be dangerous when interrupted. lol
I remember when blogging used to be “journaling”. I was even worse at that. When in the world did I have time to sit my ass down long enough to form cognitive thoughts and put it to pen?? LOL I had two boys and a husband to raise. Time? what’s that?? LOL (yes I said that correctly *wink*)
Aproximately 5 years ago, my husband of several years passed away suddenly. It was horrible and devestating as you might imagine. After starting therapy with my children, we were advised to journal or blog. Now I had even MORE stuff rambling through my head and if there was ever a time to get that stuff out, it was to blog. I encouraged my children to do so as well. This was something I could do for a few minutes or for 30 if I had the time and it began to help me heal in ways I didn’t realize at the time.
Being able to go back and read my thoughts on whatever I got out of my head was a way to reconcile things and move forward. I could blog about how angry I was that the home theatre system didn’t get installed before he passed or now I had to hire someone to mow the yard every week. lol They eventually morphed into much more enjoyable things as recalling sweet and fun times we had as a family and record the fun things we were doing currently. I would often write letters to him in my blog just to keep him “updated”. lol
For me, blogging is a way to release the stuff running around in my head so I can replace it with more memories and it allows my heart to be open for the blessings I’m supposed to receive.
This is a picture of my youngest who is now almost a teenager. They grow so fast!!!
I used to wonder how in the world it is that we manage to do so much and are successful at it all? Simple. We are women! I haven’t met a single female poker player who is a Mother and or a SO and not been able to do it all well. Ok, I’m lying, we’d like to think we do it all well. The truth is, if you’re anything like myself, you’re doing it all by the seat of your pants and hope you get it right the first time. 
Remind you of you? HA!
I remember when I started playing poker and realized I had to be aggressive to win. Look, I was born in the Midwest and spent most of my life in the South. That word wasn’t in my vocabulary much less a part of my character makeup. (I’ll go into that more later)
I’m so glad I’ve managed to raise a family, follow my dreams and accomplish a few of my life’s goals. Playing poker adds more to my life than I first realized.
Keep going ladies and empower yourself!
xoxo
Blink
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